Music is a beautiful thing! I love it! Well, I was bored and so this is what I made. They're not really that cool, but I like them. :D

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Well, my printer is really slow. I'm waiting for my essay to be printed and I needed four copies of it. Oh well.

I'm really grateful for my friends and family. I think it's so cool when I'm having a hard day and someone asks me if I'm doing ok and if they can help. It means so much to me when people take the time to talk with me.

I've kind of been having a hard night. I've just been really stressed out lately and it kind of caught up with me. Then Thatcher asked me if I was ok and if I wanted to talk and so we talked about his awesome trees and I really did feel better. It just felt good that somebody noticed that I needed a little cheering up. So thanks Thatcher. :D

And now Brad is talking to me too and so is Kortney. Thanks guys. You guys are what make my life happy :D

I have such great friends and I'm really grateful for them.

Life's good. It's busy and it's hard to balance everything, but it's good and I love it. I love all the people around me.

So this was just a reminder to all the people in my life. Thank you so much for all that you do for me. Without you, I wouldn't make it through.

-Fluffy

Once Upon a...

Hooray for the play. I'm leaving in about five minutes to go and see it! I can't even wait. I'm sure that everyone will do a great job.

I heard something about live chickens...

Good luck everyone!

-Fluffy

C&P

All I can say is that this essay is kicking my butt. This essay is so hard for me to write! I've already been working on it for like two and a half hours and I only have a page!!!!

I wish I were better at writing essays... I just can't ever seem to say what I want to say! Oh well. At least tomorrow we're only doing peer reviews...

Wish me luck!

-Fluffy

Happy day

This break was what I really needed to start feeling like myself again.

Church was great yesterday. I felt so happy to be there. I really felt like talking to people and being my best self. It was great. I didn't feel like I had to hide behind a fake smile. I truly wanted and loved being there. It was such a great feeling to be happy.

And today is going to be great too :D I'm doing so many fun things! I'm so excited.

Hooray for happy days!

-Fluffy

(8) There's no difference between the tear drops and the rain (8)

It has been a really long time since I have posted on my blog. Nobody reads this anymore, but that is ok with me. I don't really feel like writing for anyone but myself right now anyway.

I am just going to write about my life right now and how I feel about it...

I feel like I am too hard on myself sometimes. When I don't have a perfect day, I blame myself for the things that I did wrong. I think that sometimes I really dwell on mean things I say or mean things I do. I don't mean to do or say mean things, I just do sometimes.

I wish that I really felt happy with myself lately. I know it's kind of silly and trite, but I feel lost. Sometimes I feel like nothing that I'm doing is good enough. I know that all of these bad feelings are just because of my attitude, but I can't seem to change it. I keep finding myself slipping back into the same ruts that I thought I'd already moved far away from.

There are so many great things that i have in my life and I know that. I know that I am a truly blessed person and that my Heavenly Father loves me. But sometimes it's really hard for me to love myself inspite of all of that. There are so many things that I can improve at.

The other day I really sat down and did my homework and I realized that most of the things that I "didn't know how to do" I really did know how to do them I was just too lazy or busy, I don't know which one, to really sit down and try them.

Sometimes I just wish that my moods and feelings were more constant than they are... It just feels like I'm on this random rollar coaster or emotions and feelings and every day brings me a different attitude. Somedays I feel like going for it all. I feel like giving my 100% and nothing less. And then other days I feel more like I do today. I feel like I'm an ok person but not really contributing anything. I feel like I'm making mistakes right and left and I'm barely scraping by. I wish I could understand why I feel like this sometimes.

Anyways, sorry (if anyone even reads this) that you have to listen to me be sad. I really do know that I'm blessed and I have such a great life. I just really needed to get a few feelings off my chest. Don't think I'm an unhappy person, it just seems to be harder for me lately. I'll get it figured out though and everything will be better. I think that I even feel a little better right now.

-Fluffy